“I am teaching you a difficult lesson, learned only by hardship.”
– Sarah Young, Jesus Calling
The other night I had a dream that I died. I was 10 minutes late picking up a friend’s kid from school; the school closed and sent the kid to DHR. Somewhere in the process of fighting to get the kid back, I was killed. (Wow. That escalated quickly!)
If you’re into dream interpretation…which I find fascinating…death dreams usually represent a rebirth or transformation you are going through in your waking life
So, it seems fitting I’ve been reflecting on the above quote for 12 days. It’s been in the back of my mind, and in the front of my mind. And it represents how I feel about our journey to become debt-free.
Alan and I have been married for nearly a decade (10 years in May 💕). For most of that time, we knew what to do with our money…we just didn’t do it. We took advantage of many payment plans, credit card points and 0% financing deals to buy what we “needed.” And constantly struggled to figure out why we didn’t have more to show for our money.
We make good money. Why don’t we have any disposable income?
Turns out, we weren’t taking advantage of payment plans, credit card points and 0% financing deals. They were taking advantage of us.
Some days I wish we’d receive word of some long lost relative that left us an unexpected inheritance in the exact amount of our debt. We don’t need much…only $80K! We could pay off the remainder of our debt, sans the house, and move on to the next chapter of our lives; we are starting to get restless in this chapter.
But, like it or not, we know we have to continue to work our way to debt- freedom on our own merits…and on God’s too. He is using our struggles to transform us into who He wants us to be.
At 32 years old, this is the first time I’ve confidently moved in a direction despite the approval, opinions and judgement of others. It’s always been important for me to have the support and buy-in of those closest to me. I don’t want anyone thinking I’m crazy!?!
But, you know what? I don’t care much about that anymore. If God, Alan and I are on the same page then we can move forward with confidence that we are doing what is right and good. And, as much as I would like to be able to do our Dave Ramsey debt free scream tomorrow…I’m not ready for our transformation to be complete.
Oh…also in my death dream, I came back to haunt the people who stood in my way and prevented me from getting the kid back. So, think about that. #WomanOnAMisson
How has your financial changed you?